wow haven blogged for sooooo long! err ok. abt a week haha... but qt long for me :p ooo. and i got a fone haha... daddy gave me his old one :) but somehow i think both my siblings asked for it before but he din give them oops. mugging plan has been going qt well i geuss... not too bad... been doing work everyday and stuff haha... hopefully can build up some good momentum for the a's... my father is really qt pressurising abt my results... as in. i would rather he scolded me abt them outright instead of like giving all these comments abt how i cant get into anywhere with the results i have anyway so i shld apply for australia blah blah... its like. i know i did badly and i know its my fault but im trying now ok... and i kinda got angry with him and like we had some arguement... but its ok now lah haha... forgive and forget :) but i think mummy is like trying to get him not to talk abt our results to us so much haha... oh wells.

i think im a really perverse person (not as in cheeko ok!) like the more time i spend with someone the more sian i get of tt person and like i will become more hostile and unfriendly and stuff... and like the person will irritate me more and more... and its like tts how it is with my family and some friends as well... someone once told me tt he din know what a horrible and mean person i was until i started like getting irritated with him and stuff... but of cos he totally deserved it lah. and i dun like him anyway so yah. but like i was just thinking tt its true... and it din just happen to like 1 person but qt alot liao... dunno wads wrong with me man. think im really fickle. oh wells... must learn to change...

sometimes someone really pisses me off... i know ur busy and all but if ur so busy then y do u take on so much?? if u cant handle it u shldnt be doing it rite. and like... i dunno lah. just qt irritating when i need to ask u stuff and u dun reply my msges and i cant ask anyone else cos ur supposed to be the one in charge. i like u as a person and as a friend but as a leader u can be SO annoying.

hiyo like all the bad vibes haha. im reading this qt ncie book now called the name of the rose... i thot it was abit hard to read at first cos like apparently its written by some 13th century monk and lots of latin stuff inside tt obviously i dun understand haha... but its a mystery and seems qt promising :) i missed reading

i realise that this post doesnt sound really happy... but im not feeling like evry pissed or wad lah haha... just like felt like writing something haha... :p yay. october is here. my fav month :) *hint*

zy: hey dear i know i dun really talk to u that much when u stay at my hse and stuff but im always there for u k. dun worry be happy :) and we haven gone on our choc date yet! :s